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It is not for the squeamish.

Fortunately, Brendon Urie isnt.

Brendon Urie of Panic! At the Disco (2018)

Credit: Jimmy Fontaine

Dude, I was really into Heavens Gate, the Panic!

Instead, he included some of the symbolism challises, pentagrams, cult robes inthe music videofor LA Devotee.

He didnt recognize that there was a through-line connecting the music he was making until about eight songs in.

That was the most terrified Ive ever been, he says.

I was so scared.

The day before I almost cancelled.

Im putting my emotions ahead of everyone else.

Im contributing to this thing.

If they believe in you, itll be fine.

He isBojack Horsemans Mr. Peanutbutter in a crossover episode withThe Addams Family.

Im not too nostalgic.

I still love that song, he says.

You know whats cool?

It changes the meaning to me, I get more excited seeing how it affects them.

It doesnt matter how I feel.