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It is not for the squeamish.
Fortunately, Brendon Urie isnt.

Credit: Jimmy Fontaine
Dude, I was really into Heavens Gate, the Panic!
Instead, he included some of the symbolism challises, pentagrams, cult robes inthe music videofor LA Devotee.
He didnt recognize that there was a through-line connecting the music he was making until about eight songs in.
That was the most terrified Ive ever been, he says.
I was so scared.
The day before I almost cancelled.
Im putting my emotions ahead of everyone else.
Im contributing to this thing.
If they believe in you, itll be fine.
He isBojack Horsemans Mr. Peanutbutter in a crossover episode withThe Addams Family.
Im not too nostalgic.
I still love that song, he says.
You know whats cool?
It changes the meaning to me, I get more excited seeing how it affects them.
It doesnt matter how I feel.