Jonathan Van Nessis ready to be vulnerable.

He went to rehab twice and relapsed both times.

Instead, he tested positive for HIV.

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As a result, he changed his life.

He says he “hasn’t done hard drugs in years” and only drinks and smokes marijuana.

I do feel the need to talk about this …

These are all difficult subjects to talk about on a makeover show about hair and makeup.

Over the Top: A Raw Journey to Self-Lovewill be released on Sept. 24.