How do you come back from having a beloved character die with seemingly no rhyme or reason?

You have two more characters behave completely out of character, apparently!

Thats where we find ourselves at the top of A Sort of Homecoming.

(If I still sound salty, well, I am.

Its been six years since theHow I Met Your Motherfinale aired and Im still angry.

I hold TV grudges for a long time.)

The Shepherd has no interest in staying, so he swallows a nano tracker and blips out of there.

May we meet again, he says in one last jab at Clarke.

They go out and wake up Octavia and the first group to go through.

Its reunions all around, but everyone quickly notices Bellamy is missing.

I tried everything I promise, Clarke says.

Octavia gets right up next to her and hugs her.

I understand, she says, so would the old Bellamy.

Do I believe she would have empathy for someone killing her only sibling that quickly?

The woman who literally made people eat one another not that long ago?

But, okay, Ill go with it.

So, that was a whole lot of time I wasted on brainstorming theories!

She doesnt have the best memories of that place, which is very understandable!

Their first task in the bunker is to find the stone.

Gabriel says thats how Cadogan got his people out, so it has to be there somewhere.

Raven puts on her helmet and sees its 100 feet ahead.

Theyre about to go find it when Clarke asks to borrow the helmet.

Before anyone realizes whats happening, she smashes it on the wall.

This is our home, she says.

Adding that everyone they care about is there and she wont lose anyone else.

Cadogan doesnt know who drew these sketches or what they mean, but he knows Sheidheda does.

All Sheidheda wants is Sanctum as his own planet and the stone to be destroyed.

Niylah finds her old stash of booze in the vents.

Gabriel plays the piano.

Jordan and Hope start to dance.

Its all too much for Echo, who just wants to be alone.

Madi also isnt having any fun.

You ruined my life just like you ruined your own, she screams as she runs out.

Post-apocalyptic tweens, amirite?

Just then the lights come back on because settling into the new normal means electrical work for Raven.

Murphy thanks her for her work and then gives her a new project: fixing the helmet.

I still cant pinpoint exactly when Murphy became the soul of the show, but I really love it.

Raven and Emori get to work.

Meanwhile, Indra goes above ground to talk to Octavia.

But Indra wants to share the blame with her: They face the bunker together.

And its a good thing because theyre going to need all the help they can get down there.

But they dont see anyone come through.

Sheidheda sneaks through on his own, invisibly.

Octavia runs to find Clarke.

Blissfully unaware, Madi is learning to play the piano with Gabriel.

Niylah has had a bit too much to drink, so she stumbles back to her bunk.

Hope has emotions, so she runs out and Jordan follows.

Its just Madi and Gabriel left in the rec room playing ominous music.

Clarke and Octavia find Hope and Jordan (who are just the cutest socially awkward couple!)

outside the maintenance room, where Raven is working on the helmet with Emori and Murphy.

Clarke quickly fills them in on whats happening, and they tell her where Madi is.

Suddenly, Sheidheda shoves O into the room and locks the door.

The next thing you know, Gabriel gets stabbed in the back.

Sheidheda puts on a little bit of a cat and mouse game before unveiling himself to Madi.

But he has a third option of his own: to kill her and block transcendence from ever happening.

She runs to the pits, where Sheidheda follows.

But Madi puts her foot down: She says no one else is going to die for her.

Madi goes so far as to grab the nano trackers Sheidheda left behind.

She wants to turn herself in, but Clarke takes them from her.

Theyre all arguing about what to do while poor Gabriel is dying but he says hes ready.

Hes had a good 200 years, after all.

Octavia recites him the prayer they used to cite on the Ark, and he passes.

Before they can really process that, Clarke realizes Madi is gone.

Clarke rushes to find her in the pits, where Madi has the tracker knife held to her gut.

Madi says no one else is going to die to save her.

And just like that, she stabs herself and is gone.

I have to say that Clarke may be pissed, but her daughter is truly taking after her.

This is a Classic Clarke move if Ive ever seen one.

And if that werent bad enough, seconds after shes gone, the Shepherd sends through a large bomb.

I can only take so much.