Sarah, Tony, Michele, Ben, and Denise discuss their first 34 days on the island.
But enjoy thefor nowfinal five as they discuss their first 34 days on the island.
SARAH LACINA
What is the move you were most proud of in the first 34 days?
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The move I was most proud of in the first 34 days was voting out Rob.
After the swap, Sophie and I were in the minority on Yara with Ben, Adam and Rob.
It was clear Rob wanted to keep the boys together and vote one of us girls out.
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Sophie and I had our work cut out for us.
What was your favorite non-game related interaction you had with someone out there over your first 34 days?
The view was insane and the three of us sat there talking and enjoying the view.
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It wasnt shown much, but I followed Wendell around all the time.
He was always teaching me how to build things (like I was his apprentice).
What was your lowest moment out there over the first 34 days?
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I hesitated to play season 40 because of the aftermath fromGame Changers.
It is not fun making bonds and relationships with people, then having to vote them out.
I didnt want to go through that again.
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Around day 28ish, I completely broke down to Kim.
We were at the point in the game where the only people left are your friends.
I had to be cutthroat to winGame Changersand vote out people I cared about.
I took a lot of heat from the cast, fans, and myself for that.
Ive carried the guilt of that for three years and didnt want to feel that way again.
I lost it, I almost quit, but Kim was there for me.
She talked with me for about two hours, just talking through the guilt and hurt.
Kim freed me that day.
I remember feeling so relieved that I was with the girls and then blindsiding Rob.
Playing his little game where he put us all in the kennel for the whole day was so fun.
I even had my fingers crossed at one point talking with him at the well, so fun!
My favorite moment in the first 34 days was probably again at Yara.
Sophie is an amazing person.
Probably my lowest moment in the first 34 days was not winning an individual immunity challenge.
But gotta stay positive!
I was the easy target, so I loved watching everyone who felt safe have to scramble.
My favorite non-game related moments were probably Ethans nightly stories.
They are way too inappropriate for EW, but they had us constantly laughing.
Also, girl talk with Parv was as wonderful as I hoped it would be.
I had so many lows during the season.
I feel like I cried daily.
But the more that I think about it, the more lows come to mind.
Jeremy, Nick, Adam, Kim, and Wendell leaving were all really hard too.
The minute a player put their guards down in front of me, BANG!
(Except when it came to my partner, Lacina.)
Our conversation was genuine, heart-to-heart and I will never forget it.
I must have cried every other day, tremendously missing my family.
It was a constant struggle within myself.
I was so hard on myself questioning why I left my family behind for money.
What if something happens to me and my family doesnt see me again?
What if that?!
That all changed after the family visit.
I turned ON and I was not looking back!
It’s a move that in hindsight could so easily have never happened.
Sandra could have played that idol for herself, or I could have stupidly passed on the deal.
Because let me tell you…that idol looked fake as can be!
So I was torn: Do I take the risk and possibly look like an idiot on National TV?
Or do I take the chance to finally get to feel like I’m playing the game?
LUCKILY…I took the chance.
And I’ll proudly own the title of Queenslayer!
There is so much that viewers at home don’t see.
They don’t see the conversations that fill those long… often boring days off.
They don’t see the laughter as we are talking about our families or our kids.
They don’t see the connections that are made out there that have nothing to do with the game.
And layers of them with every player out there.
The check at the end of it all is just a bonus.
When we arrived back to camp that night…I lost it.
Angry tears welled up and overflowed.
It may not have been rational… but it was real.
It’s just not how I’m wired.
I was a hot Mama D mess that night.
But… it’s funny how those lowest moments can turn into your best moments.
They become valuable lessons if you’re open to it.
What came out of it for me was that mantra of “Endure” and “Let Go.”
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