“When it comes to that, I dont call it quitting, I call it self-preservation.”
MAYHEM MILLER:Its kind of bittersweet.
Wait a minute, I thought you guys were mad at me!
I made my Instagram private because it was the easiest way for me to weed out my garden.
When youre public, youre subjected to getting ridiculed and dragged very easily.
I got the sense that, throughout the season, theres something that wasnt connecting.
How did the actual experience compare to your expectations?
My experience filming was great in comparison to my season 10 experience.
Season 10 was stressful because it was new and unexpected.
Going intoAll-Stars,I had an idea, so I was a little more at ease.
I was in a better headspace.
I didnt want to go into it wanting to be perfect.
For me, it was like, youre invited back because youre a great entertainer.
Thats what I did!
Is that a correct assumption?
I battle with depression and anxiety and I know what my triggers are, and what sends me spiraling.
Ive been watching your live-streams with Morgan McMichaels every week and you guys are so cute together.
It was so much easier!
When I saw her on the main stage…. You support your friends no matter what.
It was so comforting for me.
Then, having her in the Werk Room helping me pack, it was such a good experience.
It weighed heavily on me.
That what I did was valid!
Well, standing right next to Morgan was Cracker, who voted for you as well.
And you guys referenced some issues you had in the past, but I dont know the full story.
I havent spoken to Cracker.
I havent spoken to her because it hasnt been an issue for me.
When I left the show, it was already discussed between myself and the cast that I was ok. We didnt need to have that conversation.
You also voted for yourself.
Ongina and I were just joking about it, we should start a show calledQuitting Queens!
For me, it was the same thing.
I wasnt in the headspace that I wanted to be in.
For my mental health, I needed to leave.
Youre taking control and doing what you gotta do to protect your headspace.
When it comes to that, I dont call it quitting, I call it self-preservation.
I love how you have not missed a beat!
Yall see how Derrick is, honey!
Shes that girl thats not afraid, shell stir the pot anytime she can get it!
When I saw that, I laughed and commented back, Derrick!
Its just a game, and I dont think India was being malicious toward me.
She was doing what she had to do to stay in the game.
India and I are good friends, so I didnt take it personally at all.
I do feel some people go on with the mind of self-producing.
In my case, I didnt have that in mind.
I always want to see more action.
We need more action and not reaction.
We need to not wait until theres an issue or a boiling point.
We need to keep doing the work.
Now, fans are saying she deserves an apology.
How do you feel about how her legacy is being re-evaluated right now?
I have always championed and been a fan of The Vixens since my season.
Its everything she was talking about years ago.
Its a damn shame that she got dragged and got the reputation that she did for being so vocal.
Shes been leading this for a long time.
I support her and send her all the love and accolades she deserves.
This is what we need.
She deserves every moment of that.
She should be very proud because shes worked her ass off.
I always say, if RuPaul calls, you answer the phone!
If they were to ask me to come back, I would definitely say yes!
Its a wonderful experience, and always be ready to be thrown into that gauntlet.
I am glad I went through it!
